Grifted into my mind that moment, and I've only seen it on the news as a kid. I cannot imagine what it does to a person when you actually were there, but I can very much understand that it makes you never want to attend one again.
Not related to you, but it reminded me that I found out a short while ago that a major European electronic music DJ, Boris Brejcha, was at the Ramstein incident as a kid.
He used to perform with a venetian mask on, but often removes it now during his shows.
I found this out because he's been a source of hope and inspiration to a burns victim I know.